As a young alcoholic…the oxygen mask, proverbial, had always been placed on myself…first.
I did not know what self less behavior had been. For that matter, it would seem I took from a world that had been offering me little to begin with.
There had been friends that had been only interested in my ability to cause chaos. Acquaintances that joined in my mayhem by virtue of ‘bad’ moral behavior.
‘We have found nothing incompatible between a powerful spiritual experience and a life of sane and happy usefulness.’ ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 130.
As a slightly older version of my true self. A self that continues to struggle, living life on life’s terms. The hardest part of my day is knowing the fine line of over indulgence in Paying it Forward…and, learning that I can be self-less and still pray for my safety first. Certainly, it is only the hard way that we know…
We cannot help others. Be there for others. Unless we take care of ourselves first. Life is nothing more than a delicate balance of take and give.
When we find ourselves feeling unloved or ignored, we can offer the love and attention we need to someone else. In giving, we receive much more in return—and that’s a promise we can trust.
Just for today: I will share the world with others, knowing they are just as important as I am. I will nourish my spirit by giving of myself.