When I write. I do not write for too many reasons. There are pretty, and basic. They are ugly, and unmentionable.
I struggle with life. I maneuver around love as though, I know nothing at all of the poetry found in someone’s heart.
Did I have mentors? Had I been asked twenty some odd years ago, I would have egotistically said,
My grammar has no design. My sentencing filled with errors. As if, I had no formal education.
In hindsight, my heroes and/or heroines, were/are, coarse in the middle like a pricker bush on the way to the beach. They are unsung. They are aloof. They are similar to myself in that…
I write. They write. I create. They create. For no one…but myself.
In a nutty-shell, my major had been psychology and minor had been, business management. However, I had been an English tutor. Hence, the ‘random’ in the randomwordbyRuth.
Whilst drinking, and drugging thru the halls of an all women’s college. Three people stand out…As they have for the last 25 years of my life.
Professor Buiso? An English professor who never tenured due to his drinking and his womanizing. I would have called it, teen girl-izing. For the grungy failed short story writer (turned teacher) liked to educate behind the walls of his corner office…with the doors shut.
What I remember most about the good, non-doctored, Mr. Buiso? His nails stained yellow from smoking too many cigarettes. His cheap taste in cheap scotch. His ability to turn disheveled and make it sexy and readable.
The heroine of my writing history? Tracy Chapman! Quiet, meaningful and characteristically unaware of her artistic beauty.
I spent countless weekends. Hitching down to Cambridge Square. Sitting with a James Dean edge at the water fountain right outside…Cambridge Station.
In solace and on acid. Three years were spent awaiting Tracy to arrive. As she had been rumored to do. Three years spent heading home…empty handed.
Lastly, Cornish, New Hampshire. J.D. Salinger! A recluse. An author. A writer with beauty in word and disgust for humankind, in heart.
My childhood sucked. My young adult life? Not any better. With little fanfare, I can say, I ran through the trauma and the drama, via the written word.
It is important to have heroes! It is of utmost importance, to find your art.
Sometimes the most important person to impress with your self expression…is yourself!
Cornish, New Hampshire…circa: 1960 or so.
Salinger shifted the entire focus of his life to the cabin in the woods, staying there for up to two weeks at a time, burning wood in his stove to heat up the cans of food or meals brought to him by Claire or their children.
One remark he made at this time to his ten-year-old daughter expresses much of his attitude to women. After a quarrel he told her: ‘We’d better find a way to make up because when I’m through with a person – I’m through with them’.
…a silence he explained himself with words that could be his epitaph: ‘I like to write. I love to write. But I write just for myself and my own pleasure.’
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