Death patted the worn leather couch.
Placed in frigid temperatures…the seat seemed to come from 1970…or there about.
He did not offer a love song.
Though in his icy stare…
it had been apparent to see the End wished for me to stay.
His movement so flawed, so free, like a cold sweat on a summer’s day.
If I could only pass Death by…
There would be no need to ask why.
Positioned knee to knee…
‘should I stay or should I go.’
With a chance glance to smoke from a January sky…
I turned back and Death had gone.
Leaving me with only lyrics to a love song.
The screams would never jostle me awake.
Loud torrents of torment would lull me to sleep.
Mind over matter came with no consistency.
Games of pretend came and went…offering little tranquility.
My bed became a soft rock…providing little cover.
Wild words…a free for all.
Enough so that…I could understand the blues.
The weight of desperation to leave…an elephant’s foot.
A heft of which… a granite wall…immortal, lifeless.
Little runaway, I tried, I tried.
Ravaged by midday hours…late twilight had been my hour.
I tumble as a result of…my own fall.
Darting, dodging, I could only take the route practiced and untamed.
Stuffed animals in the trees…dangling echos…all about.
Deep in a true vault of pine and birch…both shedding onto my perch.
I tumbled…as a result of my own fall.
She gave birth to me…having already believed in rickety chairs.
Having diluted her secrets like a paperback mystery.
Her book and dismembered seat have been passed down.
Her small moments of rocking back and forth…provided few victories.
Every now and again,
I will set myself to rocking…
it appears to soothe me.
Wrong from so many angles…are the abuse of others, bullying and making one feel in anyway, small.
I grew up in a family that endorsed abuse. I can say, no good came from it!
That is not to say, murder is the answer. However, when all exits off a treacherous highway have been cut…we are sometimes left with no choice but to save ourselves.
From the beginning, Cyntoia Brown’s life story has been heartbreaking. She was put up for adoption at the age of 2, and her life after that was a traumatic spiral of verbal abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, and substance abuse.
At the age of 16, she was sold as a sex-slave to a 43-year-old Nashville realtor—Johnny Mitchell Allan. She was subjected to more abuse by Allan, and in a documentary about her life, she described the abuse and how it made her paranoid.
In 2004, she was tried as an adult for killing Allen. She said she shot him because she feared he was going to kill her. During the trial, she said there was always a gun pointed on her during her captivity. She said she was hit, choked and dragged. She feared for her own life, and she acted out of that fear.
It didn’t matter. A jury convicted the then-16-year-old to life in prison. Under the then-Tennessee law, she would only be eligible for release after serving 51 years of her sentence.
The law in Tennessee has since changed. Now anyone 18 or younger cannot even be charged with prostitution, and that change in law came about because of Brown’s case. Still, it has done little to help Brown.
Many people have been lobbying to get Cyntoia Brown free, including celebrities such as Rihanna and Kim Kardashian West. Kardashian West even paid for the services of former O.J. Simpson “Dream Team” member Shawn Holley to help with Brown’s case.
Brown was granted a clemency hearing in May, but the six-member Tennessee Board of Parole was split on the recommendation to free her. Two members voted for clemency, two voted to deny clemency, and two voted to make her eligible for parole after she served 25 years of her sentence.
A U.S. Supreme Court opinion in 2012 deemed mandatory life sentenceswithout parole for juvenile offenders to be unconstitutional, and it is that opinion that Brown cited in a lawsuit seeking her freedom.
The Tennessee Supreme Court ruled in that case Thursday and in a unanimous decision, the five justices said Brown would indeed have to complete 51 years of her sentence before she is eligible for release, CNN reports.
In a statement, the court explained that under Tennessee law, a life sentence is considered 60 years, and that a 60-year sentence can be reduced by up to 15 percent (9 years) by earning certain sentence credits such as recognition for good behavior or participation in educational or vocational training programs.
Brown’s motion had previously been denied by the a district court, which pointed out she wasn’t sentenced to “life without parole”—just a life sentence.
Her case is still pending judgment in the Sixth Circuit Court of Appeals.