Weaving Way

Maybe a lost cause

a lost girl.

Found by a wayward woman.

A predator, inquisitive, tarnished but bold.

Weaving her web to wayward prey.

Talons sharpened by the victims she slays.

Ascending the turbulent sky…defacing ache.

I guess she must fly where pleasure belongs.

I want to believe…she teases away the mistakes.

the Spirits

It drink it in as though, it were my original sin.

Tin boots beating at the paneled walls…that hold my mind in place.

A cool breeze canvases karma and comes away…whispered reminders of debts yet…to be paid.

How daring to not imbibe when the spirits surround my blind side.

The hoarse intonations gather at the base of bad decisions…

And, what I hear?

...there is no place to hide.  I will find me!

Stand or Fall

Trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination.  I realized quickly when I knew I should…that the world was made up of this brotherhood of man.  For whatever that means. And, so I cry sometimes when I’m lying in bed, just to get it all out…what’s in my head… so I wake in the morning and I step outside and I take a deep breath and I get real high and I scream from the top of my lungs, “What’s going on?!”

 

I have never been one for promoting pro-life.  I am pro-life, however.  That is when it comes to decisions, physically, in my own life.  Not someone else’s.  Being a lesbian, I have no need for birth control.  Still, when I had been younger…and indecisive, birth control from Planned Parenthood, fit into my low income budget.  And, after coming fully-out?  Planned Parenthood had remained my healthcare provider for all my ‘female’ exams!

In these days of appointing Provincial Judges to a higher court and electing right wing officials, our freedoms are dwindling…a little at time.  Slipping budget cuts in between the moments of  #45’s latest debacle.

So…

The White House plans to issue new guidelines for Title X, the only federal program dedicated to paying for birth control. The new rule is expected to require a “physical as well as financial separation” between entities that receive Title X funds and those that provide abortions.

By the way, in-between the fine lines of screwing women over…

Title X provides birth control, screening for sexual transmitted diseases and reproductive healthcare.

Over 40% of Planned Parenthood’s clients receive these services. 

Early abortion bans, known as ‘heartbeat bills,’ are being proposed in at least ten states. So far, those in MissouriMississippiTennesseeGeorgia, and Kentucky have advanced the farthest in state legislatures.

https://www.nbcnews.com

Again, slowly and quietly, a woman’s right’s’ to make informed, healthy choices, are falling away with the slightest stroke of a pen.

 

 

Prayer

A caretaker…she had asked me about…how I feel about…prayer.

The room enclosed, sterile, without flair.

I bounce the question around my mind like kick balls fluctuating against a solid wall.

Where was the ‘good doctor’ going?

She knew my truth…yet, there had been a wanting of understanding.

Needles in a cushioned tomato…picking, pricking, anxiety clouded my honesty.

All I had known was the ‘Father!’

Why corner me with him?

My resolve against religion was worn thin.

All revelations and testaments were gaunt.

I did not pale in response.

‘I cannot speak for you…What you have been through…I only understand that the King…did not give me my due.’

In the silence,

only a simple response…

‘I will pray…for you.’

 

These Days

Well, I’ve been out walking…I don’t do that much talking these days.  These days…I seem to think a lot about the things I forgot to do for you…and, all the times I had the chance to.

And, I had a lover!  It is so hard to risk another…these days.  Now if I seem to be afraid to live the life I have made…in song.  Well, it’s just that I’ve been losing so long.

I’ll keep on moving.  Things are bound to be improving…these days.  These days I sit on corner stones and count the time in quarter tones to ten, my friend.

‘Don’t confront me with my failures…I had not forgotten them.’

J.Browne