Had I Known

Had I known this would have been our last embrace.
Would I have given more than I take.
I summon up that specter steeple.
As well as, that rare smile that graced your face.
Even now,
I ask the hereafter, with quiet reservation,
who does not falter?

Ominous choices of two forks in the road.
‘No, you did all you could.
How were you to know.
She always likened herself to beauty being bold.’

Those were the days of romantic sobriety.
Young love in tarnished hands.
A reckoning of waters,
so still they moved.
I moved.
You moved.

I am perpetually swayed back to that secular summer place…
with the worshipers in the sun’s face.
The only thing I knew to do was offer a way to leave.
Proposing a week’s reprieve.

Seven days.
It moved me.
It moved you.
at the time,

that was the best that we could do.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

Concord State

Concord State

I cannot be your eyes if you unwilling to see.
I cannot be your eyes if you unwilling to see.

Shame: a wasteland of guilt erected upon a plateau of ignorance.
Shame: a wasteland of guilt erected upon a plateau of ignorance.


In 1962 you made a stab at the becoming…

of unglued.

Fifty years later the animal will not be

sub dued.

Your illness is only espousing the

indifference to medicate.

A soul infested with halitosis

Negligence vs. obligation are the words

to be uttered when we…

finsih with each other.

Truth be dared

Trespassing the hospital grounds

Mind and body declared not sound.

50’s dianostic materials of lobotomies

in reverse.

Midgets and giants…

a calgary of baptists playing god

in a

fallen church.

What was she to you?

I am sure not an M.C. Laughin’.

The pen will keep writing

until you are gone.

105 Pleasant…

Thorazine’s swan song.

Quieter than Deception

Life is never so out of reach... as when you allow yourself to be? Pulled down!
Life is never so out of reach…
as when you allow yourself to be?
Pulled down!


Quieter Than Deception

It is the winter in you

that made me…see.

I am not like you.

I am like me.

Sometimes trees...just fall in the forest!
Sometimes trees…just fall in the forest!

I am on bended knee

Yet, rustic and earthen with wear

I stand unending

above the violence

below the turbulence

quieter than deception…

Bigger than free.

Paternal Poser
Paternal Poser

Ms. American Pie

great straight

Mother Forgive Me for My Sins


Dumbed Down Ambien

homophobia (Photo credit: the|G|™)

The generation I belong to seems to really understand just how shitty it is out there. The generation I have created within myself, doesn’t give a rat’s ass who gets hurt, as long as, I don’t get tainted in the process.
Let me explain a few things about Personality Disorders. I am a walking and talking example of not caring about the difference between right or wrong.
The clozapine and trazadone and anti-depressants, the melatonin and the two other pills I take are only small roadblocks in route to my destruction.
As a pretend photographer, I have attempted to find the homeless in NH. I have attempted to find out their inner workings, yet that is very difficult when standing in the womb of my parent’s checkbook. I have no clue; hence, the photos are without point and meaning.
When asked by my mother, Theresa, ‘Ambien, have you decided who you’re voting for?’
My uneducated and ignorant response was, Romney. Why? Because that is who I thought my mother wanted me to vote for.
I had found myself interviewed once for an online newspaper. Well, in all honesty, I pushed my so called girlfriend into letting me come along on the interview. I did not want her alone with my best friend Zoey! She would discover that Zoey had far more depth and originality than I. I cut that liaison off at the pass.
I had been asked three easy questions. No right or wrong answer.
Do you believe in God?
No, my parents don’t so neither do I.
Who would you want with you after doomsday has struck and there were only a handful of people alive?
Olivia Wilde!
What is global warming?
That means the seasons are going to be hotter. Wouldn’t that be cool? I hate cold weather.
So, let me put this all in perspective for my followers:
I cannot stand someone not liking me; therefore, I go out of my way to make their lives miserable.
I self-mutilate on a regular basis.
My mother and I have a weird almost sexual relationship and I somewhat enjoy that.
I live in an attic of my parent’s home, I do not pay for anything and I am the way the country is going. Dumbed down young adults.
I come from Concord NH and my bi-line is this; live-laugh-love!
Shit, I can’t even be original with my social media profile.
I am not gay! And, don’t ever accuse me of being so.
I drink like a sailor just in town from five months at sea. I, fuck, like a sailor just in town from five months at sea.
I’d rather you take a picture of me with my clothes off and I am a professional masturbator.
Ambien Grace is my name. My dog’s name is Beckett Couvilllion the third. I have tons of friends on the internet, drop me a line, I could always use one more.