a Poor Person’s Guide to Earth day

Earth Day for the Poor

-Gather the few you know!  Poverty requires a small social circle…as you do not have any friends.  Having ‘many’ pals means buying the first round.  Obviously, this does not happen much.  Place your dog and your cat in a circular rock garden.  Practice stretching.  That is it.  Just enjoy the relaxing nature of the…rock.

-Take a ride on your moped.  Make sure to pack plenty of biodegradable shopping bags.  Stop at every free pile that you took note of…from the weekly installment of…The Weekly Flea (a free publication from the free Masons!)

-Make a, Earth Day resolution.  Screw trying to fit into the second hand bikini with a low budget diet!  Offer instead to jot down eco-minded ideas.  A procrastinator’s journal that is.  Bound to depress you the whole year through.

-Perform a ‘spring’ cleaning on the cat’s litter-box.

**Please remember to use earth friendly products such as, extra elbow grease, fingernails and hemp!

 

-Instead of just tossing out old vibrators or used porn tapes.  Host a neighborhood swap!

– Get crafty!  Hand knit those cat sweaters with fabric from St. Vincent De Paul’s senior run…thrift store.

-Get dirty.  Plant some ‘banana kush, jack flash or golden goat.’

-At some point, you should donate unwanted items such as; over chewed dog toys, half eaten pastas from a broken box, the six pack of Near Beer…given to you from last x-mas.

-Reflect, reflect, reflect, reflect on your duct taped Doc Marten…footprint.  Church is still, semi free.  No need for folding money and you are promised a warm seat…at least for an hour

-Enjoy a book.  Perhaps, a book written by your favorite blogger…RandomWordbyRuth.  If that is not handy…Big John’s bathroom reader will do.

 

the ‘Look’

Rainbow stripes
Rainbow stripes (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

I know that look…I have and had seen it many times before.  When I returned home from receiving that “Look” my partner knew of which I spoke.  She had seen that ‘Look’ before too!

Let me describe for you the ‘Look’ and perhaps, some of you will know what I’m talking about, as well.

Description of the ‘Look’

The facial expression is never any different whether it is on a woman or a man!  It is a scowl coupled with a hatred born from ages of tyranny.  The disdain and repulsiveness is not from the scowl but from the eyes!  Again, it is never any different whether it is from a man or a woman.  The eyes, be them blue, green, hazel or brown, become black slits.  Almost invisible to those of us without twenty twenty vision.  Yet, none of ‘Us’ really need to look these people in the eye because we can sense the ‘Presence’.

The ‘Presence’ is remarkable in that it only carries one tone; vanity mixed with ignorance lacking charity.

What happens when you turn your back on the ‘Look’ that denotes a ‘Presence’ of popular majority?  I can only describe the ‘Feeling’ which is aroused!

The ‘Feeling’ retreats way back into the archives of my younger years.  A sense of sadness.  A notion of not being good enough, ridiculed, scared and more importantly, alone!

The ‘Question’ is always what follows the memories of ‘Feeling’ a ‘Presence’ of a ‘Look’ that I’ve known for so many years:

Why was I born this way?  Why don’t people like me?  How come I feel so different?  And, for those of us older than Rainbow flags and Pride Parades, who can I talk to?

Let’s face it, I’m gay.  Many other out there are, as well.  We don’t want to walk into a church, a store, a job interview, a business meeting, with our ‘Pride’ on our sleeves. We do want to walk on our city streets, into our town hall meetings, our Earth Day celebrations, without the ‘Look’.

The ‘Look’ that has caused 1 in 3 homosexuals to take their own lives.  The ‘Look’ that won’t allow us to openly care for each other.  The ‘Look’ that claims we are deviants to society though, most crimes are committed by middle class, heterosexuals white males.

If I were granted just one wish it would be simple:

To never feel reduced, hated, sad, misplaced and unwanted by the ‘Look’ ever again!