Addicted to Ambivalence: Matilda’s Story
Matilda had been born innocent. But with the discarded chicken wings of life that had been tossed her way…innocent is not how she remained. She did remained steadfast, however, to the idea that her love was better than ice cream. She just needed a participant to share the frozen treat with! There had been many takers but no one with the kind of ‘sweet tooth’ she desired.
‘If it weren’t for those damn cats. She’d of been married by now.’
Matilda thought this fifty year old thought! While starring at the new piece of home goods recently purchased at the nearby Catholic’s Second Hand store. A brand new porcelain white X tend A lid…toilet seat.
Matilda had read somewhere that toilet seat covers made for wonderful photo frames. It had been an article that she discovered in Field and Stream’s home and style… edition.
This new artsy fartsy piece of decor encircled a picture of her favorite cat, Carmen Le’ Calico. It hung amongst the shrine of Mason jars filled with holiday fur balls from years gone past.
As Matilda sat there in her superior stupor: the bad thinking crept into a head that sat on shoulders which were attached to a woman with no vision in which to see the light at the end of the tunnel!
It had been snowing at Matilda’s studio apartment since 1972! Up until recently…feeding her father’s wild bird collection seven days a week had been all she needed to stay centered. That is until she heard about the inbreed pedigree Persian kittens that were born at the Orphanage for Wayward Small Town Prostitutes.
Matilda sat there barren. She sat there and sat there and sat there. She sat there in her grandmother Ruth’s rocker bought during the 1967 depression with Green Stamps. Green Stamps that were supposed to be used to buy Matilda a wooden pony.
She just sat there fighting back the same old insidious addiction. The insidious addiction that many call, the Crazy Cat Lady Blues.
The day turned to dawn. Boxes made fresh and improved with Tom Kat, organic made from gold dust, litter. Cat eateries throughout the house, remained filled to the brim with all natural farm raised Albacore Tuna. And, her father’s dirty birds received their daily feeding.
And, Matilda…back on her rocker. Nothing any different than the last 50 years and one day. Nothing different other than a new and improved picture of an inbreed pedigree Favorite Cat picture…hanging behind a porcelain framed white toilet seat…gently placed upon a off the beaten path…wall!